It’s been almost a year since my last job hunting. My schooling for licensing is done and it’s time to start scouring the job worlds for any job available for me out there. I felt that I am done with all the schooling and no more sofa potatoes, you know what I mean. I really need to get to work or I might lose myself of boredom and broke. Though, my hubby’s income is enough for everyday expenses and some recreational expenses. Yet, I still felt broke because I plan to visit my family in the Philippines but cannot be. I don’t feel like enjoying the vacation with my hubby’s income and without him enjoying it. I know that he never minds but I couldn’t. Besides, the extra income is not enough for Philippines trip.

Not at all a tech savvy, my mother avoids technology buttons except the electronic gadgets in the kitchen. We don’t know why but she insisted not to be bothered by our tech savvy universe, even answering the phone is such a hard thing to do. My sister and I have been out of our first country for more than a decade now. Our constant communication gadget to reach home is by phone and recently chatting through computer. We have at least two computers at home already accumulating spider webs and dust. It’s only my Dad who got a real nerve to learn about computers to see us up here. One day, we chatted to our mother whose left hand was holding coffee mug while the right hand was bare. After 10 minutes the screen saver suddenly turned to dark, mother was shocked while calling our Dad to fix the computer or else she would lost us in the web. Ha ha ha, imagine how savvy she was? Not at all.

Now I started to feel bored. For the last three months I was busy studying to pass a licensing exam. Everything is done and license it is. I had a busy two days after learning that I have passed my test. For now, all I have is the relax feeling and wants more sleeps. Oppss, it’s Sunday and time to enjoy the day with my tot, daddy is working. I missed so much fun with our tot, its payback time.

What are other things you need to consider when traveling? There are many to think about when traveling. Well, forget everything as long as you got the ticket, passport and cash. Oppss think again, don’t you think you need medical travel insurance or may be credit card for emergency? For me, for every travel going abroad outside the Philippines, I definitely buy medical travel insurance. It is affordable. I have no experience being stranded in foreign country because of illness. It’s better to be prepared especially when you’re traveling with family. Before, I don’t care to have medical travel insurance, but since our tot is traveling with me and hubby frequently, I decided to include the medical travel insurance for the family with our ticket.

I just had my last breath to all my Christmas ornaments. Oh yes, I had them for at least 2 months and I never felt disturbed to the Christmassy scenery at home. The real reason of keeping them longer was it should bring me luck. Ha ha ha, I’m kidding. I’m just lazy putting things away besides there is no one visiting us so it doesn’t bother me to keep things in disarray sometimes. I had few boring minutes and whacked me to head that made me realized to let Christmas stays fresh in next time around. Now, our living room is bare again, I should decorate for Valentine. Urgh! Such tacky me, yukks I could never do that.

I have lived in the Philippines for almost 3 decades of my life. Shopping is everywhere and in every ones joy. Big sale and bargains happened in seasonal events and very seldom to groceries. Now I’m living abroad, eyes wide open, jaw drop, drooling and got crazy to all the daily deals. Man, from slippers to a pound of shrimp are on sale as in daily or until it last. In the Philippines, I did not experience buying loads of toothpaste and shampoo because they are on sale. Never ever, why is that so? My grocery shopping there is on tight fixed budget and sometimes more because of price instability. Here abroad, sometimes I got crazy counting my extra extra dollars left because of daily deals.

I have been waiting for something that would change my life time horizon. You know the feeling of restlessness, nervous or may be half-baked of nervous breakdown, mixed feelings of going to the loo or to pee, all the heartthrobs more than seeing your wish significant, rush of blood spewing to your brain pushing to ecstasy. Man, I’m not an addict okay. I’m just describing how I feel today. The result of something that I been waiting for is imminent. I wonder how it feels winning a mega lotto? It must be the same or may be not because I will be in coma of extreme gladness. I am not dreaming either I think I’m getting crazy waiting for my life to change in few instant seconds.

He he he, are you kidding me?! A tall tale of the rich and famous playing hide and seek, the seeker used a helicopter while speedboat for the one who hides. This is actually one of the ads of something with money and fame. It must be true to few and remain dreams for many that include me. What is this all about? I mean luxury, I stumble with these words game tables, and it must be one of the poker table, beer pong or billiard tables. I could get a spare table for dining or for our veranda but this is seems overrated because I have no space and no extra dime for that fabulous table thingy.

Why make things so complicated? There are many critical questions after the worldwide viewing of the movie Avatar. When I saw the preview in July last year, I was so excited and could not wait to see the movie. It’s more on excitement to see something new, with a story that interest the viewers in the aspects of entertainment and film adventures. That’s what I thought and belief, but critiques are too in-depth of their reviews, that the movie will deliver massages that eventually ruined individual spiritual belief or worst follow the course of the movie.

Nonsense, the movie is well created, imaginations I never thought, and it is superbly brilliant. But of course, the part where humans invade Pandora to get the precious resources is what I hated most. It is actually very realistic that we people on earth used too much of our resources and we started to fell the harsh payback of nature, and the most affected ones are the innocent who have the least causes of the angry mother earth. Like, the Na’vi who harms no one on earth yet felt the ungentle act of mankind. I hope that the movie critiques will also criticize and give slapping words to the resources hungry capitalists that sleep in their mansions paid by earth resources. Sorry, I am so sentimental now.

What I need now is thinking and thinks “what to cook for dinner”. This is the most annoying job of being a mother. You can do the washing, cleaning, groceries shopping, budgeting and planning for the family almost perfectly. But planning about foods and what to eat for every meal are tedious. I’m not the picky one, my hubby has South Asian palate and our boy is mixed who also loves fries, pizza and vegetable fried rice. We take multi-vitamins but most of the time I pass because my body is already showing the fully loaded vitamins doing its job. In short, I’m chubby and hubby sometimes says I’m fat. Great, I’m full of vitamins and oozing with it. Oftentimes my hubby is kind a scale that monitor my weight, I like it anyway.

For the last two years I was bragging and talking a lot about winter in Canada. That means, snow, lots and lots of snow and be snowed. Well today, my sister asked me why I don’t talk much about our winter. It is because there is no snow and snow bound to talk about. I don’t want to ruin my prayers of no snow, half- believe that when you talk about a thing a lot when it’s not present it will likely show into your face. I mean, you know when you speak about of someone, then that someone suddenly appears. Your guess is right, our words in unison “speaking of the devil, the devil will come”. Nothing too serious okay, it’s just an expression. Really, this year’s winter season is almost like springy. I so loving it, I don’t mind the cold. It’s just great walking without the slushy, flurry, icy wet and dangerously slippery, you know.

My hubby is still counting the days when I will say yes to the second baby. That would be stupid for me to say, because right now I am free of all baby stuff works except the needs of a 4-year old boy. I like my life now than 2 years ago, thinking to get pregnant for the second time around, please don’t, I am very very extra careful all the time. Aside from those freedom hinders when you have a new baby, how about the cost of raising, clothing, education and being responsible. Yay, it’s too much, I could only handle one for now and I’m trying to keep it just one kid. Even to get pregnant and carry them for nine months is a burden, OBGYN visits, taking all the best prenatal vitamins that make me sick, and the terrifying injections. Nope, just one, one baby is more than enough. If ever I will get pregy accidentally, expect that I would cry same as my first pregnancy. I don’t know why I’m afraid of being pregnant and being a parent. It is a big responsibility out there and I’m a worrier type.

It is already written and discussed that compulsive shopping or others called it shopaholic are compelling and something of addiction. My friend is depressed right now. She just broke up with her husband for a decade. Man, even when she was with the hubby she really enjoys shopping and the more now. The bad thing is, she’s not working, and I am worried like her, who is going to pay for her shopping paid by her plastics? If broken marriage is like a foul relationship then additional financial burden due to shopping as she believes will drown down her stress away, then I could say it’s a double penalty. I know a real friend will always be with her side, I totally applauded her decision to throw away her brain sucking marriage. Life must go on and I will never allow her to live a martyred life if counseling works. In fact, they had their fifth major counseling sessions and it never worked. Why bother, a person will never change who they are, it’s the other person or people should accept things of how others behave, that is how we changed change. That is, if we are the forgiving one and let things pass, and then another chance. If it is me, shit I don’t have time for another 10 years of mental torture. Enough is enough.

This article is best fit to my hubby’s hair worrisome. He got a lightly curl black hair, he wish to have straight hair like our son who got my straight hair gene. He is obsessed of his hair and thinks all the possible dreams to have when hair is naturally curl. I will give you all the chances to guess and I’m sure most of them fit to what my hubby loves and likes to have on his head. He is worried that his hair shed more than what he thought and suppose to fall. If the normal hair fall per day is 100 strands then 20 is too many to fight for. Oh yes, laughter is what you hear from me. What can I do, I married a romantic hair obsess being. He is not in to overly treatment for hair yet but of course he is considering purchasing a vitamin for hair loss. This is too much if ever he will pursue the purchase, he is not bald either and not on the stage to go bald. He is just hair crazy. Hair hair and hair, by the way my hubby‘s vanity is more pronounce than me.

It’s not even one month yet since the official winter season, and we are lucky enough of not feeling the harsh cold of winter. God is indeed listening to my plea that winter in Toronto is hopefully dry like in New South Wales, Australia. Sorry folks if you love snow, I love snow but not too much because it would be very difficult to walk going to my son’s school. You see, we have no car, I don’t drive and we will never do. As I have said before I’d rather saved the having car expenses and instead go traveling by bus, train or plane. Tell me who’s happier now? That’s probably us in Bahamas this year. Hubby is already on the hook, he seems loved the idea.